Your post hit my inbox at exactly the right time, as I've been wrestling with the emotional equivalent. And I know the whole bargaining thing - "I'd rather have a different pain, I'd rather have the worst physical pain I've ever had again (or vice versa)." Your line about how somehow we never picture "no pain" as an option really gave me pause.
I also feel like, when we have a chronic illness (and I have a tiresome collection), we're particularly likely to internalise this stuff because we're exposed to so much medical gaslighting about it (especially if medical misogyny is a factor based on our assigned or actual gender), and then it lies dormant waiting to pop out when a particularly raging attack of pain happens.
I just finished Curable group training on pain, which was a 12 week course on mindbody medicine for help with pain. I wish I could tell you I’m fixed but I’m not. I still felt like it was a wonderfully helpful “course”. The best thing was the group support. I think no matter what horrible things we have to go through it’s always helpful to know you are not alone. After the course was over we are still meeting every two weeks as a group. It’s wonderful!❤️❤️❤️
Your post hit my inbox at exactly the right time, as I've been wrestling with the emotional equivalent. And I know the whole bargaining thing - "I'd rather have a different pain, I'd rather have the worst physical pain I've ever had again (or vice versa)." Your line about how somehow we never picture "no pain" as an option really gave me pause.
I also feel like, when we have a chronic illness (and I have a tiresome collection), we're particularly likely to internalise this stuff because we're exposed to so much medical gaslighting about it (especially if medical misogyny is a factor based on our assigned or actual gender), and then it lies dormant waiting to pop out when a particularly raging attack of pain happens.
I just finished Curable group training on pain, which was a 12 week course on mindbody medicine for help with pain. I wish I could tell you I’m fixed but I’m not. I still felt like it was a wonderfully helpful “course”. The best thing was the group support. I think no matter what horrible things we have to go through it’s always helpful to know you are not alone. After the course was over we are still meeting every two weeks as a group. It’s wonderful!❤️❤️❤️